synapses explode out, mentos in coke.
obviously a great choice for a volcano,
and definitely blue ribbon material.
childish! oh my gosh is it childish,
but the morbid fascination makes my vision blurry…
and now i am blind. no cane, no dog, just a solid wall
which i slam my head into by chance.
my past ends now, my now ends later, and my later…
what of it? living in the moment, the moment is forever~
the question always ups my game in that i have to think about my response.
really?
yes really. and that i have no other escape route but think of the forthcoming events and just type it out, rushing across the page, filling in the white space and making the black tick marks race over to the right side, then slowly descend upon the edge just to make a swoop to the next left side. the microsecond by which it takes to go from here to there is amazing. now if only we can master that…
really?
sure. why not…
lately my life has been filled with…quite a unique bunch. one that diverts my attention…and even though im not supposed to…it feels right.
happiness is a tricky thing…filled with underlying monsters to nab at your soul…and in the end…the shredded, paper thin life will fall apart….
i’m afraid.
rawr! i has landeded on planet….earf? or what it was called…wasnt paying attention when leader was distributing pamphlets…OOH SQUIRREL!
i havent got a clue about what to write and yet i surge on in the attempt to kill time. yes, my paper is due in a few hours but i dont care anymore. sleep? arbitrary~
half the time i dont even understand what flows out of my mouth…lack of coherent thought…and i can barely string together words to form sentences, paragraphs, hell even essays.
one of us doesnt belong, and its true and you know that it is about time that we make the cut. slice it deep within the heart, pop the ventricles and whatnot.
dissection.
on the search for the perfect one - ripe and delicious. several options! but not one has the taste i crave. one after the other, one bite! my lips grow numb, my teeth grow weary of piercing, and my tongue ties in defeat. downcast eyes, walking away from it all. and yet, a call. a call! my name? surely not…but it is! eyes bright, new passion: inhale with a frenzy and immerse in the scent.
the tires feast on asphalt outside my window pane -
splashing, splashing! the road filled with rain.
snuggled up so warm, so comfy in my bed -
dreaming, dreaming! snoozing happily instead.
three hands slide slowly by his adorned face -
tick tock, tick tock! around the nose they trace.
to say that i am completely sane is an assumption by which i can stand by…some of the time. layers and layers down into my core will only lead you to find that i am a flare of something else, a material that is not on the periodic table. being blind would be an option for me: should i have to see this, or should i let it go? everything is just so blurry for me.
enough of selfish necessities and useless wants. what is important is i level out the field by which i can stand on my own two feet and say that i will not fall over when shoved. i may stumble, yes i will in fact, but i will not give you the satisfaction of landing on the ground.
a flare in a distance, eyes light up.
body quivering, anxious to start.
blink once, twice, staring forward -
muscles twitch, pushing, straining.
a shower of lights rain from above
stopping short of battle ground.
tension pulls the body close
to the ground, aiding gravity.
ears thunder with the sonic booms,
turning half deaf yet all the more alert.
i need a hero~
impairment of judgment -
unable to continue on.
tired arms flail in the quicksand -
unable to continue on.
twisted, knotted muscles clench -
unable to continue on.
the surface slips away~
shivers slightly on the bench,
bracing the cold: waiting.
piercing whistle, eyes turn up
to see longed for familiar face.
lips quirked into a soft smile
and the frozen body melts.
move to the right, to the back,
to the front, burning up.
tension is a thing of the past,
instead, pure inertia to charge forward.
intoxicating flavour, exotic colour -
permeating, penetrating, embracing.
touched~
cold, blustery day! of rain,
of clouds! and the winds that sway…
the spidery branches of trees.
warm, creamy taste! of tea,
hot chocolate! and the cookies placed…
piled high in the center of my plate.
yum.
starved. absolutely famished
for the things i do not have.
craving. lusting after
what i think i need.
years of accumulation had turned me,
turned me into the anorexic slave
of the human nature, of society.
the blind eye towards the bulimics
of our lives - consumption and regurgitation.
is this what it all adds up to?
i have a flip switch temper. definitely becoming a problem very fast: trivial situations become full blown temper tantrums!
oh, such rain we had! it was….delicious….
^ invader zim ftw.
but i digress~
its so crazy!!!!! x.x i cant help it that im a moody person! or can i? x.x perhaps if i knew what it was…maybe i can stop?
what is it that makes people get so angry quickly?
navigate me, the ship careens. ten oars, each sinking and rising in order - five to the right, five to the left. leaning northeast, stab at the inky black! retrace the steps created, rethink the course: let the wind sail instead. sometimes a gift, a miracle of certainty, other times hesitant yet lumbering forward. could they have taken a different course? would the result be the same? almost for sure, the answer is yes to both. but by now, the path is set. sail on, sail on! until the final destination.
typing.
to begin with…
never mind this thought
useful?
i’d rather say useless.
QUOTE MARKS!
oop gone. ;P
experimenting is FUN :D
take that, homework monster! i have completed…1/3 of slaying you! and you’re ignoring the fact that its 4 on 1 here…date + time + amount + pressure vs. me.
well technically me, my mind, my computer…..but lets just condense it to me.
me. me. me……a name i call myself….far a long long way to runnn!!!!!!
running o.o” drylands. swimseason. starting. ohboy.
random banter.
thoughts amuck!
i want cake.
today feels like _______________?
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just keep swimming….~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~just keep swimming!!!!
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why am i doing this again -.-
emoticons emoticons emoticons.
there, i said it three times.
OH LOOK A WHALE!
where o.o”
…
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meh.
i give up.
