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yule time tidings

christmas time comes and goes, another year of useless wrapped boxes. what good is it when the permanent hug is from the person you hate most… for the next year covered in the shroud of dust, dormant and dead. doornails

Dec 26th

yule time tidings

christmas time comes and goes, another year of useless wrapped boxes. what good is it when the permanent hug is from the person you hate most… for the next year covered in the shroud of dust, dormant and dead. doornails

Dec 26th

and a happy new year

in theory, i know what christmas is - the holiday of giving presents from the bottom of my heart. in theory, i know how christmas feels - receiving the cumulation of love throughout the years. but what is theory when it is not played out? what is life without the experience? december, the month of christmas: twenty five days of a beautiful hangover, twenty four days of false hope. ...

Dec 24th

and a happy new year

in theory, i know what christmas is - the holiday of giving presents from the bottom of my heart. in theory, i know how christmas feels - receiving the cumulation of love throughout the years. but what is theory when it is not played out? what is life without the experience? december, the month of christmas: twenty five days of a beautiful hangover, twenty four days of false hope. ...

Dec 24th

恐惧是爱的心

重复，重复，总是重复你不能闭嘴, 你的大嘴巴… 你敢再说一遍吗?

Dec 23rd

恐惧是爱的心

重复，重复，总是重复你不能闭嘴, 你的大嘴巴… 你敢再说一遍吗?

Dec 23rd

go away. stay away.

so many people standing in the way all the muffled voices and nameless faces plague my crowded mind.

Dec 22nd

go away. stay away.

so many people standing in the way all the muffled voices and nameless faces plague the hallways of my mind. gtfo.

Dec 22nd

what good is it anyway?

why do you haunt me so, oh ghost of christmas past? why do you frighten me so, oh ghost of christmas present? why do you taunt me so, oh ghost of christmas future?

Dec 21st

what good is it anyway?

why do you haunt me so, oh ghost of christmas past? why do you frighten me so, oh ghost of christmas present? why do you taunt me so, oh ghost of christmas future?

Dec 21st

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destination

my fingers are slowly freezing - one by one right to left, from pinkie to thumb. icicles form and crawl up my vein from my ring finger, ice blue stain. cold dead corpse, hollowed out eyes: my heart stopped beating, shrinking in size. muscles lax and drop, body in coffin six feet underground, buried with all my sin.

Dec 20th

destination

my fingers are slowly freezing - one by one right to left, from pinkie to thumb. icicles form and crawl up my vein from my ring finger, ice blue stain. cold dead corpse, hollowed out eyes: my heart stopped beating, shrinking in size. muscles lax and drop, body in coffin six feet underground, buried with all my sin.

Dec 20th

your request for a last farewell

to go on without you for me is a life of looking back. a life of ifs, could haves and would haves but the bottom line was i didnt. and i’ll pay for that dearly. when we meet in the future, i hope things will be different. better. and that i wont cause you pain. if i do, you have every right to shoot me. i dont want this to be the last farewell. i’ve bothered you too much. im...

Dec 19th

liquid nitrogen

how can i help you? i really want to, but i dont know what’s wrong. i have a sinking feeling that its me, but also, that it runs so much deeper. i want to make you feel better. i want to make sure your heart doesnt hurt unnecessarily. but i dont always get what i want. even though the world is mapped out like this, i pray hard for you to live. actually, live. Life’s a banquet, and...

Dec 19th

cluttered

carbon copy, yet complete contrast… what am i supposed to think now that i know. same reach, but only one latches on who decides this fate? go away. you’re too close. come back, you’re too far… wtf is going on? all the ifs in life.

Dec 18th

cluttered

carbon copy, yet complete contrast… what am i supposed to think now that i know. same reach, but only one latches on who decides this fate? go away. you’re too close. come back, you’re too far… wtf is going on? all the ifs in life.

Dec 18th

against my better judgement

i do not want the world to see me because i dont think they’d understand my life long struggles, they’d not want to see all the damage done by her hand.

Dec 15th

stay home cook rice

trade war stories of the asian family house hold each day another world war damage worse than nuclear warfare the past hides more than the mask of lies the sweet smiles… diabetes in a glance.

Dec 14th

toilsome

just when i think that im back on track i deviate further away. in a few weeks time its going to start again everything resets itself and the seasons reverse time plods onwards and the pit keeps getting deeper but im not turning back… whats done is done and acceptance is all i need… naive pain~

Dec 13th

strobe lights

let’s escape from this cold, hard world. close our eyes so we wont see the pain we are in. hold our breath until all is well and worth living again. but at this rate, we might never escape from this life. we might be forever blinded we may never breathe again.

Dec 11th

because everyone's gotta die sometime

alloted time has come to take you from the earth no cloak can cover you, no shadow will be dark enough for you to hide in. you will survive for so long…only a limited existence. coming back, live forever, start the killing to make the deceased out of the living…

Dec 10th

niche

i dont belong here this place is too crowded for all of us take me back to my galaxy dont invade with your rockets polluting my air with your fuel years to get rid of it years to recuperate why do you even start anyway? stupid. incredibly stupid.

Dec 9th

recluse

voices overlapping each other why do i listen to you when i am supposed to be voicing myself? perhaps its just me trying to bring you back i need you to be there. though our time together was short, its significant nonetheless. distant connections…. but i hold them fast. good luck trying to leave without me.

Dec 9th

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lost

i cant seem to find you anymore the person who i once knew. although you’re present you’re drifting away because you cant come to terms with yourself. nothing fuels me anymore. its just simply me. why cant you accept it?

Dec 8th

unoriginal

i think i’ve lost all motivation every day i struggle to get up to move my limbs lethargic brain no synapses slowly wither away in my grave eight feet down six originally but two beaten down by the fury of the cane of the fist drunken anger from my familiar from my stranger who is she? elder.

Dec 5th

skirmish